March 10 - 3 years ago today, Mom, you left this earthly life to go be with Jesus and "dance with the angels". And how you loved to dance. Today brings back lots of different memories and emotions. The first of which is sadness - as I remember the pain I felt when I learned you had left us. I can still feel that pain. I miss you so much. But I tell myself to think of the words to the Mercy Me song (Homesick) - You are in a much better place. I feel sad at times knowing I cannot talk to you here and now. I miss that. I miss sharing my life with you and laughing at the good times we always had when we all got together. Then I feel guilt - why didn't I go back to see you earlier. I was waiting for summer, but should I have gone sooner?
Then I prayed. And God showed me all the OTHER memories and emotions that came from this day 3 years ago. I remember all of us kids together for the funeral - all the memories we shared that week. I remember how we all dealt with and handled all the funeral arrangements and legal stuff. No fighting - no problems. We all knew what you would have wanted and everything went so smoothly. I remember sitting around the kitchen table (our favorite family spot) - going through pictures and laughing at some and quietly remembering others. But most of all, God showed me how much the family came together and the LOVE we showed to each other in so many ways. I especially remember Larry holding me in his arms while I cried at the funeral home. Sometimes the love was shown in a hug, a look, a quiet moment together, an evening reminiscing with everyone. But the most important thing is that we have grown even closer since then.
So even though we have lost you here on earth Mom, you brought us closer together more than ever before (and we were close before), and I KNOW that you are happier than we could ever imagine and I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN IN HEAVEN!!! I LOVE YOU MOM!!
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Debbie, I also remember that day. Seems like only yesterday...and then it seems like it has been a while. When you called and told me that your mom had passed, it was like the breathe was sucked right out me. She was not my mother nor had I ever met her. Yet through you I had loved her. Through her came my friend, the dearest one I have ever had. Through her my life has been blessed beyond measure.
I am so glad that you asked me to spend this day with you. At first, I had wondered if I might be intruding on something private, but then we had a fun time just walking around. It was just how life should be. Enjoying the present, remembering the past and looking forward to the future.
I love you, dear friend! You are one day closer to that sweet reunion.
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